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Sad Chick
03:43
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Sorry I didn’t call
My phone’s across the room
I threw it at the wall
And I still haven’t moved
They’re gonna tow my car
And I can’t find my keys
If you think I have it all
Then you don’t know me
Sleeping in my jeans
And tearing at the seams
Lose it if I let it go
You think I’m a bad bitch
Can’t you see this baggage?
Don’t wanna admit it
Baby I’m a sad chick
I’d be a bad bitch
But I’m way too damaged
Don’t wanna admit it
Baby I’m a sad chick
At least my clothes are clean
But I still got nothing to wear
I washed them last week
And they’re still in there
Sleeping in my bra
Too much to take it off
You don’t really wanna know
You think I’m a bad bitch
Can’t you see this baggage?
Don’t wanna admit it
Baby I’m a sad chick
I’d be a bad bitch
But I’m way too damaged
Don’t wanna admit it
Baby I’m a sad chick
Sleeping in my jeans
Soaking through the sheets
Sleeping in my jeans
Soaking through the sheets
Sleeping in my
You think I’m a bad bitch
Can’t you see this baggage?
Don’t wanna admit it
Baby I’m a sad chick
I’d be a bad bitch
But I’m way too damaged
Don’t wanna admit it
Baby I’m a sad chick
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Caught crying at the foot of your love
I could say it doesn’t matter but I’ve been here before
Still holding what I wish I would want
But it’s falling through my hands and now I can’t pick it up
Cause I took my shots and made my bed
And now it feels like I might wake up dead
I’m just a cog in my machine gun head
And I can’t pretend
That I don’t want you to love me
I don’t want you to love me
You wish you didn’t even know me
But god I want you to love me
To love me
If I could argue with
Som else
Then I wouldn’t have to
Convince you of the lie that I keep telling myself
Cause I know that I said what I said
If I were you I wouldn’t take that bet
I’m just a cog in my machine gun head
And I can’t pretend
That I don’t want you to love me
I don’t want you to love me
You wish you didn’t even know me
But god I want you to love me
To love me
Oh, if I say it
If I say things I don’t want to feel
Oh, if I say it would it feel
Like I don’t want you to love me?
I don’t want you to love me
I don’t want you to love me
You wish you didn’t even know me
But god I want you to love me
To love me
Oh, if I say it
Oh, if I say it
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3. |
IRL
03:44
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Wake up
You don’t know what you’re saying
You talk in your sleep again
Make this
A little less complicated
We don’t need to pretend
We can fly on by
Floating in the air and stopping time
And you can read my mind
Like we’re never not seeing eye to eye
But we don’t do that in real life
Are we
Living inside a circle
Thinking we’re seeing straight?
Can’t help
Thinking about the after
Will we go back to before
We could fly on by
Floating in the air and stopping time
And you can read my mind
Like we’re never not seeing eye to eye
But we don’t do that in real life
I keep jumping in
I keep jumping in
I keep jumping into the sun
I keep jumping in
I keep jumping in
I don’t know what I’m doing wrong
I keep jumping in
I keep jumping in
I keep jumping into the sun
I keep jumping in
I keep jumping in
Wake up, you don't know what you're saying
We can fly on by
Floating in the air and stopping time
And you can read my mind
Like we’re never not seeing eye to eye
And we can burn it down
Until there’s nobody else around
And we can dive in blind
But we don’t do that in real life
We don’t do that in real life
We don’t do that in real life
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4. |
Summerlin
03:32
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It’s never been this cold
This time of year
It’s snowing in the canyon
How did we get here?
It’s never been this dark
A starless sky
The weatherman can’t understand
But I know why
Five days in
Ended up in Summerlin
Funny how I’ve never been
Five days since
The night that I lost my grip
Wish I could stay in Summerlin
The streets whisper your name
I’m driving blind
I wonder if you ever
Sped down Vegas drive
I know I don’t belong here
Didn’t mean to pass through
So I’ll just run away
The same way you do
Five days in
Ended up in Summerlin
Funny how I’ve never been
Five days since
The night that I lost my grip
Wish I could stay in Summerlin
I remember who you used to be
Left him behind when you left me
Are you happy that you’re finally free
Even if you still love me?
Can’t we stay in Summerlin?
Come back to Summerlin
Come back to Summerlin
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5. |
For the Sake of It
03:38
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I’m in the fire, of trying to do everything
Burning desire lit up the house I’m living in
I’m caving in, too sensitive and delicate
Every step forward, makes a mistake
In the weeds, pulled everything that I could get
Dirt on my sleeves, but I don’t see the garden yet
I’m digging in, still waiting on the benefits
Checking off boxes, cleaning my plate
You could say I’m doing my best
Every time i take in any oxygen
You could say just give it a rest
But I’m just gonna break and start it up again
Yeah I know myself
I’m wasting time
The more I try
Exhaust my mind
All for the sake of it
I feel so sick of it
Fighting the wind, too tired now to hold my ground
Throw myself in, it’s easy when I’m falling down
Giving in, habitual oblivion
Sitting in silence, taking up space
You could say I’m doing my best
Every time I take in any oxygen
You could say just give it a rest
But I’m just gonna break and start it up again
I’m wasting time
The more I try
Exhaust my mind
All for the sake of it
I feel so sick of it
Losing light
I fall behind
But I still climb
All for the sake of it
I feel so sick of it
You could say I’m doing my best
I’m wasting time
The more I try
Exhaust my mind
All for the sake of it
I feel so sick of it
Losing light
I fall behind
But I still climb
All for the sake of it
I feel so sick of it
So sick of it
I feel so sick of it
So sick of it
All for the sake of it
I feel so sick of it
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6. |
Little Bird
02:18
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Fly little bird ‘til you fall down
I'll keep plucking your feathers out
One by one every time I ask
You to keep on coming back
You can go anywhere you want
I never said you had to stop
But one by one I'll always ask
You to keep on coming back
One by one I'll always ask
You to keep on coming back
Sing little bird til your lungs give out
I’m replaying your mournful sounds
One by one every time I ask
You to keep on coming back
You can go anywhere you want
I never said I’m all you got
But one by one I’ll always ask
You to keep on coming back
One by one I’ll always ask
You to keep on coming back
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7. |
Growing Up
04:36
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Now they’re separating
My ideas from my bones
My soul evaporating
There’s no one here to sing my song
I crash my bike just to feel like I’m alive
Falling head first, thinking I can fly
Shut my eyes and count to ten
Praying for that moment when
I’m not gonna die, but I think I might
Can’t see beyond that one headlight
Wish I always felt this fear
My emotion’s engineered
You wanna get better?
I don’t have an answer
You wanna get better?
I don’t have an answer
You wanna get better?
I don’t have an answer
I wanna get better
Cause I’ve tried
Everything they sold me
And I just feel the same
If I’m alive
I’m gonna search for something
Even if it’s fake
You’re at the top with a long way down below
Everybody’s pulling out their phones
To capture something real
Study up on how to feel
And it’s easier to watch someone else
Do everything you’d never try yourself
Cause the second that you jump
You can never get enough
You wanna get better?
I don’t have an answer
You wanna get better?
I don’t have an answer
You wanna get better?
I don’t have an answer
I wanna get better
Cause I’ve tried
Everything they sold me
And I just feel the same
If I’m alive
I’m gonna search for something
Even if it’s fake
Ooh
Ooh
You wanna get better?
I don’t have an answer
You wanna get better?
I don’t have an answer
You wanna get better?
I don’t have an answer
I don’t know the answer
If nothing’s real
Why am I still flesh and blood?
Dancing through fire and walking on floods
I can’t figure out the point of it but, I try I try I try
And I’d never go as far as some
But what if I can never get enough
Edging on endings and looking for love
All in the name of growing up
I wanna get better
Oh gimme an answer
I wanna get better
Oh gimme an answer
I wanna get better
Oh gimme an answer
I wanna get past it
Oh get me there faster
You wanna get better?
I don’t have an answer
You wanna get better?
I don’t have an answer
You wanna get better?
I don’t have an answer
Oh gimme the answer
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8. |
My Meds
03:17
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I take my meds in the morning
Then I put on some porn and
Hope the sun goes back down
I take my meds in the evening
Gave up searching for meaning
The stars don't guide me now
Tell me how I'm supposed to feel
Nothing ever seems real
Been a while since I've been in the deep end
Head above water, why can't I breathe yet?
I'm alive but I can't find a feeling
Tell me what's better, silence or screaming
I take my meds in my suitcase
So I can sleep at a friend's place
Never make it on my own
I take my meds cause I need to
Say to the mirror "how are you"
Just to feel less alone
Tell me how I'm supposed to feel
Nothing ever seems real
Been a while since I've been in the deep end
Head above water, why can't I breathe yet?
I'm alive but I can't find a feeling
Tell me what's better, silence or screaming
Never thought I would get so dependent
Let me know if you know where my head went
Anything just to feel something different
Who am I now when I'm not pretending?
I take my meds cause I need to
I do what I have to
I won’t make it on my own
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9. |
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Caught crying at the foot of your love
I could say it doesn’t matter but I’ve been here before
Still holding what I wish I would want
But it’s falling through my hands and now I can’t pick it up
Cause I took my shots and made my bed
And now it feels like I might wake up dead
I’m just a cog in my machine gun head
And I can’t pretend
That I don’t want you to love me
I don’t want you to love me
You wish you didn’t even know me
But god I want you to love me
To love me
If I could argue with
Somebody else
Then I wouldn’t have to
Convince you of the lie that I keep telling myself
Cause I know that I said what I said
If I were you I wouldn’t take that bet
I’m just a cog in my machine gun head
And I can’t pretend
That I don’t want you to love me
I don’t want you to love me
You wish you didn’t even know me
But god I want you to love me
To love me
Oh, if I say it
If I say things I don’t want to feel
Oh, if I say it would it feel
Like I don’t want you to love me?
I don’t want you to love me
I don’t want you to love me
You wish you didn’t even know me
But god I want you to love me
To love me
Oh, if I say it
Oh, if I say it
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talker Los Angeles, California
Telling the truth is hard. It’s also liberating. On her debut album, talker (the alias of indie rocker Celeste Tauchar)
isn’t keeping any secrets.
talker has released 3 EPs to critical acclaim, receiving nods from NPR Music, Stereogum, The A.V. Club, Billboard, and more.
She's releasing her debut album this summer, with new single "Easygoing" arriving February 21st.
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